breaking even

in the end i hope
to break even.
no more no less.
a wash.
after all,
what else can really be
hoped for?

to break even.
to come out of this thing
not unscathed, but
worn in,
like some old pair
of shoes.

without debt
without surplus
without attachment to any

i mean really,
what is there to be gained
or lost
but more
of oneself?