killing me slowly

what am i to do about this aching heart
that shallows my breath and weakens my will?
what am i to do about this waning spirit
that walks along the edge of extinction?
what am i to do about this darkness
that falls upon me like a thousand silent hammers,
and no matter how cleverly i hide
still finds me like the evening shadows find the forest floor?
what am i to do about these memories that haunt me
holding me down
drowning me
in so many tender regrets?
what am i to do about this endless hope
that drives me onward towards oblivion?
what am i to do about this death that forever follows me,
my constant companion upon the rising road?
what am i to do about this love that won’t die
but is killing me slowly?